Planetary Alignment, Sun
68th spirit within the Goetia
In the morning, the first thing I did was make the sigil of Paimon and baked it. The second thing I did was make a breakfast/dessert gnocchi for my family before they left. It turned out great and me mum saw how simple it was. I went outside with them and helped them bring a few things out and my siblings were all over me and I felt a real remorse for not going back with them. Even though my childhood was shitty, I was homesick for the old days.
Belial, Ba'al El, and so many others. He is all throughout Rabbinical mythology and Demonology. He rules Qliphoth, rules the ruined worlds which were broken back down into Binah... in various hierarchies, and often a feared Daemon. To me he is the mountain which reaches all elements, base is molten rock, which is constantly in change while the top is melting ice, jagged and smooth from the erosion. While I don't feel completely balanced with earth, Belial is a perfect counterbalance of fire and earth for my imbalance.
I began watching Battlestar Galactica this night by watching the entire four hour miniseries... tired but I was surprised by how good it was.
Same offered to take us out for lunch, which was a great offer which Rose and I accepted being we are pretty damn broke. Rose was writing, and I was reading before she began playing her game which is relaxing and reminiscent. We went to a nearby town for a big lunch of Korean BBQ. The price was a bit more than he could chew, so I threw in a twenty being me mum had given me a lot of disposable cash which I am hoping a job will cover soon enough. We then drove to a nice Pagan/New Age/Dungeons and Dragons shop... yea D&D stuff, but good incense and a good selection of books and candles... albeit expensive. I got some frankincense and dragon's blood incense and four small black candles for a quarter a pop. We then walked to a close by thrift store where I fought a battle to buy these brand new shoes which were my size. I lost the battle and spent the 18 dollars on the 120 dollars Nike size 17 shoes.
They fit nicely but still need to be broken in, and I need to remember how to walk in ankle supported shoes which is a new sensation being after the ankle break I wore nothing but dress shoes.
I made the sigil of Belial this night, using the manuscript version then the Dukante on the back. This ritual on the fifth day, I'll need to ink that sigil and Paimons.
Dreamed of Belial this morning. The dream was so damn powerful it startled me enough to search around the house in the wee-hours of the AM. I saw a figure in a darkly lit Egyptian Temple. His head was that of a skull of a long snouted mammal like a horse, donkey, deer, elk... ect. His chest was bare and golden tanned, and muscular. His hands had claw points to the nails and were covered in a soft hair to the elbows. His lower body was covered by a linen cloth in the way of a skirt, of pure white and a cord tie of gold. He was performing a ritual and he pointed at me with his clawed hand and I felt a sharp pierce which awoke me. As I awoke abruptly, the background changed to that of my room, but he was still standing in front of me. I couldn't move, and I felt pinned down as he then moved his arms in a circular motion holding an invisible orb in his palms and then did a short bow and my vision turned a blinding white before I had control of my body. Intense... amazing... and it scared the life out of me for obvious reasons.
I couldn't wake up in the morning, even after the time was 1PM. I took a quick shower and joined Rose with her trip to work in hopes I could finish up my write-ups which I did. The entire day I was half awake fighting slumber with caffeine.
After an hour at the house doing some general cleaning, we were off to Beechwood House, which is the place where most social gatherings occur. It was a part to say goodbye to Sam, and to eat, drink and be merry. There were movies, people to discuss academia with and sangria. We were there for a while, and when the party had begin to end, it was easily apparent. I was still feeling the slightly sluggish effects of alcohol, so I made sure to keep myself hydrated. I tried to do something to Belial, but I was exhausted.
Spent the majority of this day sleeping, trying to recuperate from the discomfort I was in. I had dreams of people's negligence causing death, and dreams of people not able to control their cars, which made me feel helpless.
I didn't exactly do nothing though, apart of making breakfast and dinner, I did a lot of reading through the new DB books I acquired. I found myself stuck on the alchemy chapter, quite addicting...
This day I spent the bulk of it writing up the ritual for Belial while waiting for a doctor appointment in Starbucks. I used rites from the Greek Magical Papyri, Daemonolatry Goetia, a standard invocation, and a pillar ritual from Daemonolator's Guide to Demonic Magic.
For the ritual's prep, I set up a pillar ritual for the charging of the sigil, and I prepared a beeswax candle, which I carved the name Belial into, and the Dukante sigils on the bottom of each of the tea lights for the pillar ritual respectively. I anointed each candle with blood and kept some for the ink I was going to make with oil and ash. I also burned olibanum and dragon's blood incense. With the altar set, I did an energy meditation to purge unwanted thoughts from the room and myself before taking a purification shower.
After being cleansed by water, I entered the ritual space and lit a candle for light. I began the night's rites and rituals with an invocation to the seven planetary spheres via the seven Greek vowels which is found in the book Hermetic Magic. I then invoked the Four Great Kings of the Goetia as per the Daemonolatry Goetia, and then called upon Lucifer for general assistance within the rituals. I sat at the altar and felt the atmosphere, almost crackling with the energy. I said the conjurations to Belial which are in the D.G. I said each conjuration three times, while lighting the beeswax candle the first time after the first enn.
I gazed into the skrying mirror and asked for his appearance or a sign, but I could see nothing different. I wasn't deterred by that though, as these Goetic rituals aren't about seeing the spirits, but rather giving my thanks. I inked the sigil of Belial by combining my blood, some oil and some ash and placed it in the middle of the circle of candles which were still unlit. I lit each one with the candle of Belial and performed the pillar ritual as described in Demonolator's Guide to Demonic Magic and left it there as I continued with my ritual. I burned more incense for Belial, thanked him and did a meditation before closing the ritual.
I left the pillar ritual continue and let the candle anointed to Belial burn and welcomed the mundane air outside of my room as I walked out. After the ritual, I found myself famished... that often happens when I perform longer more elaborate rituals.
When I came to bed at 2:00AM of the next day, I found that my tealight candles were still burning, but my 11 inch taper candle which I burnt as an offering and as a connection was nothing left but cold wax on the candle holder.
*An idea which occurred while working with Belial*
For those who read this project and would like to get a little more out of it or help fund me with supplies, I am going to set up a donate button. You do not have to donate, and if you do, you may remain anonymous, but for those who donate a minimum of ten dollars, I can craft a clay seal of any sigil or talisman you would like and send it without a problem. I also have a simple book idea in the works, but that isn't in stone.
EDIT** Removed donation button. It was broken, and not thought out.